TroubledSyn

Time to rest the engine and engage the soul. So much has changed- and i have so much art to share with you guys <3 
poems photography art- etc. 

Never in my life did i think i would stray so far off my path.. and into a deep, spiritual awakening. From the moment of my mothers death to all the failed friendships and relationships, to shedding a identity that i made to protect and project with. At this point, i am indulging in the the sweet silence of my mind, and the hunger of wanting to create all that holds within me. 

( photo not by me: artist unkown. )

I havent been on here for such a lonnngg time... well im back lol
enjoy the romace of this lil story i made up
more writings to come and pictures


Candle Light

He slipped his hand around my face underneath the candle light … ignited a flow of heat ..nuzzled my frame into pure enjoyment… peering through his hold of fondness… He stood serene by the sensation that overlapped his heavy intelligence …when thought had passed…blanking out into the now…. the contentment floured above the ceiling… grew with impendence… I fallowed my finger down his chest… linking my hand above the shadows… functioning like a habit… basking in closure… blinding raw fervor… words became trivial… frozen in a lock of exchange between two wits… where the body was accused for dominant retaliation… none were not alarmed.. Nor did it hook to their judgment… Both settled .. never replacing eachother from one another

Within me… Scratching at the surface of my objective indulgence, to the convenience of owning the ability of inscription and spirituality at my finger tips… Lurking for my attentions to spark and ignite the flame that was once conflicted by the musky deprivation of a ferocious transformation that plowed through understanding… I accepted the revolution within and embraced all the challenges of my own millstone.. through the blistering combustion of women's love in needed competition I found that nothing is more heavier then my own abilities to strive through.  
So desperately exhausted from the road that I've set out for myself, so unsettled to understand the true meaning of why I started up this path in the 1st place. in perfection this is what you would call a settle understanding of reasoning that laid above the obvious and underneath the unaware.

By Bea

PLease, there is no need to be nasty about my modeling or anything else i do on this web site. i understand that every one has their own opinions and what not. but if i didnt ask for it.. please dont give it. i dont need the bullshit from other people who i dont even know, tell me that im a porn star and that i should jst srop what im doing and become a Suicide girl... cos im not.. and theres a reason why i dont become thoses things.. hard to beleive, but i so have alot of respect for myself and i would never do anything like that cos.. thats not who i AM. i love my body and i have NO SHAME in allowing myself express it to the fullist extent. so please insted of walking behind me or in front of me.. walk besided me...

OH and on top of that. PHOTOGRAPHERS WHO LIVE IN la AREA PLEASE MESSAGE ME ON DEIVANTART TO SET UP PHOTOSHOOTS. i am a fetish model, yes.. but i want expand my intrests thank youuuuuu

you have a freaking awesome day now you hear!

this message is ment for photographers only

im interested in having more crazy ideas in my modeling and not jst stiicking to only fetish...
so if any photographers are interested in having me model for any of your creative crazy, out of this world, ideas.. please lte me know.
maybe we can take some of my ideas as well and mesh it together with yours.

1. I'm easy to work with and im not scared of my body

2. I'm a lil insane... but thats whatmakes the photo even more interesting lol

3. I love all the creepy horror insane out of this world photography... i fit like a puzzle pice